I have been very depressed lately. The first sign was the fact that I went from sleeping normal, to not being able to sleep at night to sleeping for extremely long periods of time.
This might sound gross to some of you, but my personal hygene is quite disgusting right now. I haven't tooken a shower for quite some time now. Well, I guess that is a lie. I took a shower on New Years Eve. I had a party to go to that night. Before that I hadn't taken a shower probably since Christmas. I haven't combed my hair, straightened my hair, washed my face, brushed my teeth since New Years. Today I forced myself to brush my teeth. I also haven't changed my clothes since New Years. Pretty gross, huh?
All I do all day is watch tv and smoke. That is it. Every now and then I will get on the internet.
On the brighter side:
I talked to my brother on New Years. I haven't talked to him for a good two years now. He turns thirty in April. We were talking and he told me to get a facbook. I told him that I couldn't because I didn't have a college e-mail address. He said that facebook changed it and now you can get it with a normal e-mail. I was like okay, I will get it.
I've been on facebook for two days. I already have 384 friends. I moved when I was in high school so all my friends from my old high school are all adding me asking me what I have been up to. It has been pretty fun. I first started out adding my brother and a few friends that I could think of off the top of my head. Then the word got out that I had a facebook and everyone seems to be adding me.
The funniest part is the people who are adding me who pretended to stab me in the head during band, would make my life miserable just because they thought it was fun. Ones that I punched in the face because they had called me a whore. The ones that didn't like me because of my last name. They are all shocked because of where I am now compared to them. Half of them are pregnant or already mothering a child. The other half are going to a community college because they spent all of there college money on clothes, shoes, and drugs.
It's called karma and it fucks you right up.
spreading kindness, one hug at a time. alie.
5 comments:
*hug*
:-)
Since you are so depressed, why don't you go kill yourself?
Jump off a building.
Overdose on pills.
Hang yourself.
Crawl into a whole and die.
You are pathetic.
Anonymous that was utterly and completely uncalled for. Why don't you take your hate somewhere else. Maybe go jump off a cliff with it.
Anon that is very uncalled for :/
Alie i feel for you if you are going through depression, i was much the same just before xmas, i didnt think i could get out of the slump i was in, everytime it hits me its worse and worse but just hang in there.
Anon,
You obviously have never suffered depression, or you would be aware of the acute pain it causes.
That is truly the lowest of lowest acts, to come here, on her private journal, and say such incredibly cruel and ignorant things to her. One day this might just happen to you.
Alie, I am deeply sorry you are feeling this way. You are always welcome to come and talk to us :D
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